Hey there Beautiful Soul,
Life has been busy lately for me. Lots of planning, overthinking, trusting and calculating. It’s safe to say things are evolving and changing for me at the moment and that is a good thing. While I find myself in moments of uncertainty, where I question my actions and the overall process I’m in, I know that I need to push through this period I’m in right now. I made a decision for myself to set me free and to bring myself one step closer to where I need to be and so should you! For me, experiences like this have highs and lows. And why is that – simple: we get scared. On one hand daydreaming about the future when you’ll finally do this and that is one thing, but actually coming to the point when “in the future” turns in the “now” is a whole new thing. When something you build up in your mind in the past, is ready to be turned into reality, it’s scary. While you’re getting excited and happy about finally doing something you’ve been dreaming about, our ego comes in and puts little doubts in our heads. These can be big, small, sudden, expected and/or total nonsense, which doesn’t mean we won’t be bothered by it. In my case, my doubts haven’t been that significant, because I know that I’m doing the right thing and while it is a big step for me, I wouldn’t want it any other way. That’s something to keep in mind – trust in the process!
If we started seeing change more as an adventure, rather than expecting it to be like unwrapping a Christmas present you’ve found hidden in the basement for weeks in advance, our whole expectation around that topic would change. Truth is, even if we dream of doing something for weeks or years, that doesn’t mean that it’s going to be easy or a hundred percent perfect when it finally comes down to it.
Change has some kind of build up to it. First you get excited, then you might experience some form of set-back, then you question the process, then you start going somewhere and you get excited again and so it continues until you finally get there. And this is when you know that it was the right choice and the fear you had building up to this moment was just that: fear, nothing else. It was the fear of losing something, that works by ruining it. This could be a job you hate but you get paid well and when you finally decide to quit and go for the job you always wanted, you suddenly feel the need of holding on to it, because what if the new job doesn’t work out, what if it turns out less pleasurable and fulfilling than you imagined it to be? It could be moving out of your apartment and buying your dream house, taking the vacation you always wanted to take, getting married, having kids – really the list goes on and on. At the end of the day we could turn all of our dreams into fearful scenarios, but then again, we could turn our fears into hopeful dreams as well. So what it comes down to is, that by overthinking and fearing special outcomes, we might become hesitant to the change we were longing for in the past.
It’s time to trust want we were initially feeling and welcoming a life that feels good and authentic to us, while letting go of anything that doesn’t fit, instead of clinging on to it just for the sake of comfort and safety! When it comes down to it, nobody benefits from this. It’s just how the saying goes: “the only difference between try and triumph is a little umph”. Push yourself and conquer that little umph and see where it takes you and I promise you, it will be worth it.
I want you to think about your life today and what needs change. Figure out what needs to be done or done different and don’t set yourself a note for the future, start doing it now. Do at least one thing that scares you but will bring you closer to an authentic, fulfilling life!
Sending you Love & Light ,